When I was in college, there was a time when I remember being unable to sleep and crying out to the Lord. My soul was so troubled. I had sinned against a close friend through an unkept promise. At the time, I didn’t think it was a big deal. But then he shared with me how hurt he was.
I was crushed.
I knew in my heart that, not only did I sin against him, I sinned against the Lord. My heart was so bothered. I couldn’t fall asleep. I spent the night ask the Lord for forgiveness and guidance.
Have you been there before? Maybe it was something between you and God. Or maybe it was a situation like mine when you let a friend or family member down. Regardless, if you’ve been there, this resonates with you.
Today’s psalm of ascent reminded me of that situation, especially in the first 2 verses:
Out of the depths I cry to you, O LORD! O Lord, hear my voice! Let your ears be attentive to the voice of my pleas for mercy! (Psalm 130:1-2 ESV)
Even though I knew God was there and that He was more than willing to forgive, my heart still cried out to Him. I knew that I needed Him. I felt desperate. My guilt overwhelmed me. This is where the next few verses echoed my heart:
If you, O LORD, should mark iniquities, O Lord, who could stand? But with you there is forgiveness, that you may be feared. (Psalm 130:3-4 ESV)
I often revisit this psalm and others when I feel spiritually frustrated. As Donald Whitney says, “There is a “psalm for every sigh of the heart.” The means, I know that when I open these scripture songs, they often say what my heart feels. God is so good. His Word is a clear portrayal of His goodness to us.
Church: what passages or verses minister to you when you’re in spiritual distress? This is definitely one for me.
By: Todd Thomas — Worship & College Pastor