Today you should read: Psalm 44
“I pray, Lord, that today would be the day you show up…”
There is a distinctly serious tone today in this psalm. Can you feel the anguish in the writer’s heart? Can you relate to his cry? This psalm seems to be divided into three “pieces.”
In verses 1-8, the psalmist reminds us of who God is and what He has done. This serves as a model for us: to begin our prayers with reflection about the ways in which God is working around us.
Verses 9-16 are unexpected. After all of his praise and acknowledgement of God, he announces the terrible situation that he is in. It amazes me that he could have acknowledged God like he did in verses 1-8 yet be in a season of “rejection” by God. That’s a heart for God right there.
Verses 17-26 are even more unexpected. Despite his situation, he still makes a declaration that he has not, and will not, live for anything else but God. He will not, “deviate from His way.” Wow!
So here’s the picture: they are seeking God in a season where God doesn’t seem to be present. Of course God is present, but they can’t feel Him or see His hand.
“Arouse Yourself, why do You sleep, O Lord? Awake, do not reject us forever. Why do you hide your face and forget our affliction and oppression? For our soul has sunk down into the dust; our body cleaves the earth. Rise up, be our help, and redeem us for the sake of your lovingkindness.” (v.23-26)
Ever feel like that? I did for a season in my life. I was seeking God with all of my heart, from morning to night. Scripture was literally before me all day long, yet I couldn’t sense that God was there. Months went by of seeking Him, but I just couldn’t feel His love and presence in my life. It was almost as if God removed that satisfaction that comes with His presence to purify my faithfulness to Him. Would I still seek Him even when the feelings weren’t there? Would I choose to still follow Him? Will you?
During this time, Tim told me something very valuable that he had done during a similar season in his own life. He said, “Sam, wake up every morning and pray, ‘God, I pray that today is the day that you show up. But even if it is not, I will still seek you with all of my heart.’”
Are you experiencing this, “Dark Night of the Soul” that God has ordained? Dive into Psalm 44:23-26 and pray, “God, I pray that today would be the day that you show up, but even if you don’t, I will still seek you.”
Posted by: Sam Cirrincione